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How do I create positive new habits by using LSD microdoses?

Change comes after awareness. Before long-term changes are possible, we have to recognize the patterns of behavior that were previously installed in our ‘biocomputer’. In making these previously unconscious behaviors conscious, we excavate and defuse their core. To give a concrete example: someone who is possessive and insecure in a relationship can microdose LSD and then purposely put themselves in a situation where this behavioral pattern is triggered.

During the LSD experience, this person might discover that their reasoning is faulty: That their possessiveness scares away the very people the person consciously wants to attract.

The resultant feeling of discomfort is then ‘sat in’ and breathed through. As the feelings resolve, the person may peel back progressively-deeper layers of programming and unconsious motives in their patterned behavior.

Our example here, of a hypothetical dysfunctional attachment style, is merely one possible permutation of many programming routines in the average human biocomputer. LSD can reveal hundreds, if not thousands, of such programmed-routines. These routines can be related to any number of things.

To return to the example we have picked at random: On breathing into the feeling of insecurity in interpersonal relationships: Perhaps, the person will discover that they are purposely sending out signals of ‘clingyness’ or ‘desperation’ precisely because, on a deeper, previously-subconscious level, they actually fear deep connection and do not want a close relationship.

This type of paradox is common in human psychology: A paradox where a person consciously believes they seek something, while unconsciously ensuring it cannot be attained.

To pursue our example further (and to remind the reader that it is merely one possible example of many programmed routines): the person microdosing LSD may uncover the deeper root of their habits in relating. For example: Because their relationship with a caretaker or parental figure was dysfunctional, the person was never provided with an early-model of what successful interpersonal-relationships look like. In the absence of this model, they felt great pain over a lifetime.

This pain, paradoxically, is the reason they unconsciously sabotage present-day relationships.

If this person were to relate in a securely-attached, loving way, they would be forced to acknowledge the full extent of the pain and loss that comes with understanding they were unloved as a child.

The adult, in the present, then inures themselves against feeling this pain by unconsciously creating circumstances that make it impossible for them to find an island of calm (a loving, balanced relationship) from which they can grieve the past.

By remaining, instead, at 'sea', this person staves off the pain of the past; projecting it always onto the tumult of the present, and avoiding the terror of their deepest wounds. This is a common example of a program that can be idenitified and excavated using LSD.

To recap: Consider a dose of LSD that you are comfortable with using in public. Then purposely put yourself in a triggering situation. Then compassionately observe your inner world.

How can I break negative patterns that have become habituated?

Breaking negative patterns takes time. The most effective method appears to be to observe and deconstruct the pattern structurally; calmly.

Deeply entrenched patterns can be broken as a side-effect of awareness. Patterns do not typically break under force or merely with the intention to change.

Significant changes come with understanding the pattern; not with collision or frustration with it. Often, anger at ourselves for not changing is an active component of the negative behavior itself. Patterns often seek to reinforce themselves by berating the sufferer for their weakness when they relapse.

The successful elimination or reshaping of habitual patterns should not be a battle; it should be calm internal dialogue. With awareness we can evaporate the deadly charge at the core of our programs.

How can I discover which behavior patterns are detrimental to me?

To determine if a pattern is harmful to you is a matter of subjective perception, and it’s difficult to offer any guidance here other than to watch your feelings closely. If you are unsure if a pattern is harmful, attempt to elicit the patterned-response in the LSD state and observe it.

How can I experience life as I did when I was a child?

After many months of healing work, you should reach a point where you are able to live very much as you did as a child. Most ‘adults’ are multiple layers of bioprogramming, much of it installed under extreme duress in our earliest years.

The calm and respectful use of psychedelic-medicines on a weekly (or more frequent) basis should lead the intelligent, thoughtful person to freedom.

The timescale for total self-actualization will vary depending on the degree to which early-trauma has imprinted itself; the level of self-education on depth-psychology you have undertaken; the frequency of sessions; and the degree to which your everyday-environment and social-connections impede (or support) your healing journey. Many self-healers will ultimately change their entire living-situation by the time they are done.

How can I make the most out of my LSD microdosing experiences?

Trust that you will heal, and the medicine will catalyze your inner-intuitive self-repair mechanisms.

How can I detect and unknot tensions in my body by taking LSD?

Improvise ‘yoga’-like moves while on LSD. Your body knows how to repair itself. Modern medicine is mostly a corrupt myth. Trust in yourself. A soft carpet; space to stretch out; and soothing music is all you need. Don’t get preoccupied with popular ‘yoga poses’.

Although formal 'yoga poses' can be a good springboard for exploration, they are rarely, if ever, the precise moves your body needs to make to unknot tensions. Locate the tension through general movement, then improvise variations around that tension that explore it. Release should come naturally given this type of engagement although it can take many months of work.